November 28, 2010

Confessions of Someone Who Truly Does Not Know It All-Yet

Sometimes, I sit in Church at Mass and I’m actually able to overlook what people are not wearing and concentrate on my own engagement in The Sacrifice. Maybe I’ve become charitable or soft or maybe I’m not really as cranky and uncharitable as I often appear on my blog.

I went back and re-read some of my older posts. I’ve noticed how my tone has changed over the last several years. Adoro calls this “maturity”. Perhaps. Either that or a realization of my own shortcomings. Maybe that is maturity. I don’t know.

I do know that I often feel overwhelmed. I was in the book room of a local Catholic store on Saturday and as I perused the selections and realized I would never be able to read even half of the material I was deeply saddened. There is so much to learn, so much to know, so much material available to deepen my Faith and I’ll never read most of it. So much to learn, so little time.

I think all I can do is prepare myself with what I do know and what I do have. Maybe one day, if I’m properly prepared, I’ll come face to face with all knowledge. I’ll know everything. There will not be anything left to know.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

I would simply say that on our journey to Heaven, all we really need to know, we learn not with our minds but with our hearts. Be assured you're on the right path.

November 28, 2010 8:19 PM  
Blogger Ray from MN said...

Lets face it, nobody can read all there is to read about the faith. I also don't read nearly as much as I should, outside the internet.

I've toyed with the idea of teaching an RCIA or Confirmation Class on a regular basis.

I met a new convert a couple of years ago and I really enjoy it when she asks me questions. Either I might know it or I get to do a little research and attempt to give her a good answer.

O also enjoy correcting the columnists of the NCReporter. and the pagans who make comments in newspaper letters to the editor comments boxes.

November 28, 2010 8:48 PM  
Blogger Angela M. said...

We don't need to read it all. That's the beauty of the Catholic church - the Magisterium is there to teach us. Most people were illiterate for hundreds of years yet they passed down the faith. Aren't we blessed to be Catholic?! (yeah, I know...that was a rhetorical question!)

November 28, 2010 8:56 PM  
Blogger Terry Nelson said...

Cath - psssssssst! That Catholic store - the back room where the books are... cameras hon - they see you drinking.

November 28, 2010 9:21 PM  
Blogger belinda said...

Dear Cathy,
I've felt the same way and especially after I've read some really beautiful posts about a great saint here or there. I would think "DARN, I don't know anything!!" And I have to rotate the laundry and have no time to learn anything!!

But my sadness passes when I realize that the only thing I really have to know or do is to love God and then his people as much as I can and the rest of this stuff doesn't matter very much - It's just other people rambling.

I watch my disabled daughter and think- God loves her and even though she doesn't know very much. She loves him and he loves her and they both seem pretty satisfied with their arrangement. They accept one another as they are. She doesn't question God and he doesn't make her smarter.

Does God really need or require any more from us other than our Love? A love with absolute fidelity?

Everything, and all knowledge belongs to God and is at his disposal, everything except your heart ... that he doesn't own, you had to give it to him, he didn't take it from you and after you gave it to him I suppose he was pretty delighted to have received it and how much you didn't know at the time, wasn't really a problem for him, for that you have eternity. Your heart was the key component, the building block to all else.

November 28, 2010 10:04 PM  
Blogger Angela M. said...

The most important knowledge isn't found between the covers of a book but on our knees in front of the Tabernacle. (shamelessly ripped off from Abp. Sheen.)

November 29, 2010 2:39 PM  
Blogger Subvet said...

God desires faith, it can be as small as a mustard seed as long as it's there.

Think of the Pharisees, they "knew it all" but were dead inside. Christ looked for followers amongst the living, that included zealots, tax collectors, boisterous blue collar workers, prostitutes, Samaritans, etc. Even the first Christian saint (Dismas) was somewhat lacking in theological knowledge.

November 30, 2010 1:37 PM  
Blogger belinda said...

I love how Angela wrote what I was trying to say and it only took her twenty words but I wrote a 500 word essay. Darn!

November 30, 2010 1:51 PM  
Blogger Angela M. said...

Belinda - LOL!!!!

December 01, 2010 7:33 PM  

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